I go to seek a Great Perhaps.

Make it stop.

I’m just sick of this. I’m sick of all of this. I want to be done. Made new; set free.

My back, and my head… the two things that impact me the most. slowly tearing me down. It’s so frustrating. I can’t get away from either of them and it’s killing me. Just please make it stop.

Today, my brother asked me what the biggest turn on, in a guy, was to me. I honestly couldn’t think of anything. I mean, yea, I can think of small things that may “turn me off” at first, but all in all, I can over look those things.

To me, the things that turn me on the most are the things running through your head; Your thoughts, your passions, the way you think. I won’t fall in love with you just because you have a sexy voice, muscles, eyes, face, smile, or whatever it may be. Those aren’t the things I will fall in love with. I’ll love them, but they won’t be the initiatives to what makes me fall in love with you.

I fall in love with passions. The way people’s eyes light up when they talk about the things they love, or the things they are passionate about. The way they could talk about it for endless hours. How determined they are to do those things. How your mind works when you are in the heat of the moment, doing that thing you love. How your thoughts scatter. How you speak about the things you love. The fact that it never bores you. How you couldn’t care less if you fail, you just want to do it. How motivated you are. How you aren’t ashamed, even if other people don’t agree or like it. The way you don’t care, the way you love. How you can speak freely of it, not worrying about what other people think about it. How I know it’s a true passion, by the way you stand up for the passion.

I love passions.